MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Christmas svcs are good. like very very good. especially the drama production. and i'm much of noticing ryan during the dance la. ooo the best dancer in the WHOLE WORLD. I was debating in my mind whether to go svc this morning or not. well the cookies are with me and its i have to go kind of stuff. yup so i went la early in the morning. and well was bless by the msg on peace. and then went for the afternoon svc again. but this time i was rather pissed off during the drama. cause i'm sitting behind this new friend and he keep talking and me being rather short have to keep straining to see the drama. and i was super piss off i kept cursing in my heart :X got to go and repent. then after that cool down. after svc, we went to hall 6 to play carnival. or rather eat. i was rather stoned at first because of something that happen. then i slowly turn back to normal.
then went to play meteorite again. this time we dragged wen kai XD. and we were screaming and playing games during the ride. then around 6 we left. everyone except us and merilyn went to orchard to countdown. erm i went home la. slept on the way back. it was soo sweet until somebody had to drop his drumsticks. (for drums) on the floor and woke me up.
then went to buy dinner and stuffs.

cross my fingers and hope i don't speak any vulgarities tml. or if i'm darn pissed tml. i'll stuff the whole bottle of licorice down whoever that gets on my nerves tml. and if i speak any vulgarities. i'll go and repent for 2 hours straight. guess i'll on this comp and leave it on and please NO MATTER WHAT FEEL FREE TO SPAM ME OR ANYTHING. cause i'll be darn bored tml.
and if there's any nonsensical msg received, please note that they are written by my mature NOT cousins or rather childish guys. heh note is GUYS. i'm the eldest grand daughter and i doubt any of my younger cousins have the guts to touch the comp. no matter what i'll get ready that bottle of licorice, quarter eaten i think. its awful.and i'm soo prepared to blow up. and if anyone is boliao or anything maybe drop by and you can find me sitting on the stairs out =/

thanks to all those who send me meaningful christmas msgs and those who wish me verbally or tags on my board or you have done all three. umm some from people i dunno. some from my cousins from my dad's side whom i also seriously dunno. like i dun even know their name and they know mine. and some from classmates and good friends. thanks ALOT! AND MERRY CHRISTMAS.

lastly this is not for you( uhh you). but if you want to read. go ahead. you'll just go 'ooo' and dunno whats going on.

sorry if i cannot be what you want me to be. like to go and interact and everything. you said even you yourself is introvert. and if you can why cant i. but i'm not you. sadly i'm not you. i just cannot bring myself to talk to just anyone i just met. cause i'm me. i'm like this and if this is what you dun want to see. sorry. you just have to see. cause if i change, i'm not me anymore. and stop asking me to talk when i dun want to. i need my personal space and friends which i can call my own. don't even try to get me to go out with aquaintances when i just want to go out with my friends alone. i'm not shutting them out. it's just that i am not close to them. and going out with them like that cannot change anything cause i'll be alone. everything takes time and especially for me alot alot of time before i can trust a person. and now i've lost my mood to do anything on tuesday. don't ask me to do what i don't want to do. don't try to change the way i am. cause i'm soo darn tired of things going on.

i guess wednesday is the day i need to unwind everything out that happen in 2006.

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<3 ZOE. 10:53 PM